Sometimes I just feel like writing something but there's nothing that comes to my mind when I start this blank page. However what I know is that as long as I start typing, then the words just come and flow into the page. I guess that is similar with the saying of 'life must goes on' which is like no matter how much you like or dislike of the moment you are going through, you still have to go through about it. Recently I like an English song from a Chinese singer, Shiga Lin - "I'm still loving you". If I were to listen to song like this few years back, tears will flow uncontrollably from my eyes but now, I just enjoy the song for the singer's voice and the tone of the music. Guess I can say now, I am happy with my life. I am not writing this post to tell everyone how lucky or happy I am now. I have been through a lot, happy or unhappy moment. I have been through the worst moments of my life and what I can tell is when you are unhappy or sad, no one in this world could help you or to make you happy again. No one seriously, not even your mom although you were part of her previously. Only you yourself could make yourself happy again. Let me give an example, when you are sad, is like you are sitting in a dark room full with a lot of evil stuffs. No body can go into the room and drag you out to the sunny land outside because you will have to walk out of the room yourself. What your friends and family can do is just standing outside the room at the door and do whatever they can to convince you to step out of the room. Meaning if you are sad no one could make you happy again and even if they do, it is just a temporary effect. You will need to help yourself. You will need to stand up and straighten up and then walk out of the room YOURSELF. And now, you are out of the room, so what now? Happy ending? No way, you are just moving yourself to another phase. When you are in sunny land now, you cannot guarantee that you will never step into another dark room but what you can do is to avoid entering another one. And if you are seriously unlucky and fell into another one, you will need to learn how to walk out of it again and continue walking till the end of the world. So when you fell into a dark room again, it is not the end of the world yet. Just straighten up and walk out as life must goes on.
Friday, 1 March 2013
Starting this brand new blog with a homesick post, should I call myself cheerful or what? I found that I always have this problem now ever since I moved into a lovely apartment last spring. I found that I often homesick when I back to Malaysia, a place which I called my home for the past twenty-six years. Erm, I wonder what the heck is happening to me? Why I started to call a foreign place which I couldn't even speak its language properly home? Why I love this foreign place more than my own home?
No answer. Yet.
But what I know is that every time I back to Malaysia, I will often get sick. The doctor told me that my body cannot adapt to this place that is full of pollution. The polluted air always made my skin itchy, eyes teary, nose runny and now even my throat is sore from this polluted air. Mr Pollution, you won! This time I am worst. Doctor diagnosed me as 'virus infection' and it seems like the anti-virus system is yet to be installed in my body, erm time to do something. The doctor wrote me a long list of vitamins to be taken as supplements. Vitamin C, Vitamin B, Vitamin E and the list goes on... But no, I hate supplements. I always ask why do we need all these craps when we can find these in food? Time to eat clean. Go organic and eat healthily. Trust me, I can do it and guess from now on my blog will be full of what I call 'good food' and its recipes...
Posted by Hime Jenn at 08:10